I have had many ‘professions’ in this first part of my life. They call my species a multipotentialite, is what I was told some years ago, and last year I wrote a book about my ‘species’.
As an actress in a series the script writers have put my character in certain situations that asked for feelings that have been challenging to play from time to time.
It has been a long time however since I was acting and playing a role that was written in a scenario. I wonder whether the years of life experience that I have by now would make me a better actress?
I think I would for sure be better in deciding what shade of feeling to use for every situation.
I would love to act in a series or in a movie again. I am totally ready again to play someone else, as I finally decided to stop playing myself.
Today I decided I am just gonna BE me and not ACT like me any longer.
A script has a beginning and an end, someone decides what path the character will walk towards the goal. With a cliffhanger from time to time to keep things exciting.
I will from now on write the script of my own path of life. No one will seduce me anymore with goals that shine, you do not need to try to persuade me with the call of the spotlights, the call of success, even with the call of what is supposed to be love, even if diamonds are a girl's best friend.
I will decide what the setting will be, I will speak the lines I want to share from my heart, I will enjoy the exciting cliffhangers.
For those that have been trying to write their own role in my script, for those that got a role without consent in the past, I am sorry that time is over.
I have had a very hard time in saying no to other people for a long time, so I was trying to live my life and theirs at the same time. As I am quite good at combining, I did succeed.
But from now on I have more time for my own scenario and I am looking forward to it.
